1 Day Till Christmas
“Trust” by Gerald Dierkes
Read by Gerald Dierkes
Submitted by Gerald Dierkes
Gerald Dierkes is an information services specialist, and one of three Falvey staff members to submit one of their own poems for the Advent calendar.
With this final post I would like to thank everyone who has followed along with our Advent calendar as we made our way towards Christmas, my colleagues for contributing their favorite poems, especially my colleagues who bravely shared their own beautiful work with us, and our graduate assistant Michelle for working with me to get each one of these posts up on our blog.
I hope you enjoy our final poem, written and read by Gerald Dierkes, a reflection on trust.
Joseph, Mary’s husband, did you feel shocked
to learn of Mary’s unplanned pregnancy?
by her apparent infidelity
so soon after your commitment to each other?
by Mary’s joy in anticipating her child’s birth?
by her implausible explanation?
as you protected her from legal consequences
of her alleged adultery?
as you accepted responsibility for her child?
by your neighbors in your small community?
by God’s plan?
_____Why didn’t God arrange things differently?
When Caesar Augustus’ decree forced you to
leave your home in Galilee,
journey to Bethlehem, and
cause Mary to travel in the ninth month of her pregnancy and
give birth away from her home, away from her family, did you ask,
_____Why didn’t God time things differently?
When you sought shelter at an inn for your obviously pregnant wife
—and were refused—
did you think, What gives, God? I’m trying to follow your will, aren’t I?
You persevered, though, finding a shelter for animals in which Mary could give birth,
without her mother, without a midwife, with only you at her side.
Mary did give birth, and God’s Son was born into our world.
_____Why didn’t God plan things differently?
Mere days later, the angel again directed you to change your plans,
this time fleeing to Egypt for an unspecified length of time,
causing your father, Jacob, and Mary’s mother, Ann, to wait years before seeing their grandson.
_____Why didn’t God do things differently?
Did you expect God’s will to be predictable, logical (by human standards), and non-challenging?
Did you ever pause, in your struggle to trust God, to consider how much He trusts you?